February 2009
0 posts
YOUR A FUCKING STALKER
i know your looking at this you fucking creep since i deleted you on everything else online. seriouslly get a fucking life, your scary. yeah keep reading my blog though because i dont know what your life would be without reading my shit.
herbert says hi and thinks your a creep and a punk weeeerd
January 2009
2 posts
This started by me contemplating taking a train to Virginia or Massachuesttes or anywhere but here. I’ve locked myself in my room with my laptop and have smoked 7 newport 100’ ciggarettes. Constant music playing followed by the ocasional ring of my cell-phone. Myabee I just want a change or am going crazy from being stagnant or perhaps the argument started something new, re-surfaced...
December 2008
20 posts
sleepy head
ciggarettes, lots and lots of cigarettes and smoke forming in front of my face. chaped lips and warm lighters.
I have the worst lock-jaw ever it’s rather painful.
though it’s been a day the Coke is still fresh in my system. Traces of white powder on my raw white nose and the intoxicating numbing feeling is crawling up my throat, itching, thirsting, fiending. Me and Rachel just...
“There comes a time when every life goes off course. In this desperate moment,...”
People
come and go.
make an appearance and then walk out.
come and go.
arrive and leave.
its ok I’m getting used to it, I mean it always hurts but it’s whatever I have my whole life ahead of me. some things just are not meant to work out and some are. everything will fall into place.
average
day. school & then decided to just not go to work. They are such assholes to me I dont feel bad and hope I get fired so I dont have to go through the akwardness of offically quitting. Things with Justin are just getting better and better he got over his fear of PDA lmao<3 and pretty much everyone knows. I better see him tonight.
going to the mall monday and getting some of his christmas...
The snow
is so beautiful. so so so breathe takinglly pretty.
I miss it literally all I ever saw from october till march was snow when I lived in Pennsylvania. It doesn’t really snow here where I live now.
I’m in a better mood now, I realized money is money and my boss is my boss i can’t change these things so why don’t I just focus on the good things, which this week pretty much...
Decemeber 16th (reasons today i should be happy)
-waking up this morning.
-having a pack of ciggarettes and not having to scrub.
-Justin bringing me Tea because I am sick.
-Him telling the lady at Gus’s steel grill that the tea was for his girlfriend.
-that dani walked with me to the bus stop so i didn’t have to all alone.
-That it was cold but not that cold and I didn’t shiver.
-That my dad is feeling less sick.
-That I...
First real snowfall
was tonight and I wish I could be with you for it.
Today sucked, working a shitty job just to keep me preoccupied and out of trouble and to buy me some more shiny things that don’t even matter to me just make me look better to other people.
I dont know why today im so depressed, maybee it’s the snow.
maybe I was too happy that now I’m crashing down for the night.
maybe...
tumblr you are so quiet
i think that is what i love about it here. no one comments and hardlly anyone reads this. This qoute pretty much describes how i feel right now
“it’s hard to stay mad, when there’s so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I’m seeing it all at once, and it’s too much, my heart fills up like a balloon that’s about to burst… And then I remember to...
You treat me like a princess, you make me so happy. I never excpected this in a million years. You give me so much hope and are one of my best friends. And I know that there are going to be many more nights like saturday, the thought of that makes me smile.
kjshgihurjustin<3
November 2008
29 posts
Plans
igorpetrov:
There are always photos I leave out of the Facebook albums for future use. Those photos will premier on my soon-to-be website. Examples include:
The best photos are going to be included in a physical, page by page photobook.
The website will also include dozens of unseen videos.
send me the link to your website when its up and running <3
“WEARZS MAH PEENUHT BUTTAH BARRRRh@!”
– sarah geourge intoxicated in the avalon hahah<3
I am thankful for
(in no order)
-my dad.
-my friends and actually seeing who were just a waste of time and who werent
-thanksgiving brake and friends coming home from college
-the fact that college is so close, highschool will be over soon.
-my job and that i make my own money.
-myself
it's all my fault
i love you and im so sorry your one of my best friends you better write me everysingle day.
trust from excperience rehab isnt that bad.
i cant help but feel responsible
:[
gonna go cry some more
My lungs are fresh and yours to keep
Is this the way a toy feels when its batteries run dry? I am the watch you always wear but you forget to wind. Nobody plans to be half a world away at times like these, so I sat alone and waited out the night. The best part of what has happened was the part I must have missed. So I’m asking you to shine it on and stick around. I’m not writing my goodbyes. I submit no excuse. ...
greys
anatomy, i totally blanked and forgot when it’s on.I could use some greys anatomy at the moment!
dear NBC,
mascarah:
Please do not cancel Lipstick Jungle.
I don’t know what is up with the new Friday timeslot but I know that isn’t a step up.
Keep it around. PLEASE.
agreed i love lipstick jungle
In a coma you dont dream
I’m missing this beauty all at once, all my pets have died.
the blood no longer rushes to your cheeks and you no longer say my name.
I dont think I ever mattered but it’s better not to think.
so i rest my head on the tile floor , i’m sure there is some place better i will be heading for when this is all done.
